music, therapy, and me

This post started out as a rant about my current feelings about things, but I'm not interested in continuing that type of thought process. Just so you know, I woke up in a bad mood, ruminating on a situation that needs to be completed that I had no control over, and then finally taking the courageous step that I needed to do and finding that the situation is complete. The bad mood is still there - I am VERY much in "I don't want to do this anymore" mode and it is permeating my every pore this morning. No. MJ, you are NOT going to dwell on this! I spent some time in my bullet journal over the past two days. I neglected it over the past two weeks, but I am back to using it. I am also preparing my new journal - it will start at the end of June when my current one fills up. I am taking a bit of time to color in the format that I've selected. I've been using my marker collection (HUGE - it's a problem for me...) and some of the stickers that I've been g...

Yesterday, I took a sick day. I woke up with my voice in the tenor register (I'm usually a soprano), with a runny nose, and a wicked cough. I took my heavy duty medication and then settled in for the 24 hours of serious side effects that happen with the heavy duty stuff. I tried to find my assistant principal's voice mail box and finally gave up and just texted him (at 4-ish am). I sent emails to both of my interns letting them know what to do once they got to work, and then I slept. Today, I have to go to work.  It is a long, long week at work. We were supposed to be having Open House tomorrow night, but it has been postponed - there are lots of reasons behind this, but all I know is that it has been replaced with "team-building" activities. I can't participate as I have to go to work tomorrow evening halfway through the mysterious trip to team-building. I'm not all that disappointed. I will be at work for a long time this week because one of my interns...

I have a case of the grumps - that mood where there just isn't anything that makes me happy and everything just makes me a bit angry. It's silly things, really - my father's ultra conservative posts on Facebook, the fact that the cat wants to cuddle at times when I do not, all the food that I have in the cabinet that just doesn't sound appetizing to me at all, the list just goes on and on. Nothing is really serious, so I'm thinking this is the product of hormones, and I am very grateful that I have another day off before I have to work around others.   It is time to spend some time in my own company. I don't think I'll get an early morning phone call from my father - my family is going to the memorial service for my second cousin once removed today. I'm not going because I am the only one who doesn't live in California. Grump. I have to make a choice - do I let the grumps take over my life? Or do I work through them. I choose to work through t...

Ever have one of those days where everything and anything just rubs you the WRONG way? Here we go. I'm going to blame the moon. I mean, after all, why not? Right? It's just there, waning away, every night. The moon doesn't care if I blame it for everything that is going on in my life right now. On Monday, a client walked into the music therapy room and rudely questioned, "Why aren't you absent? I don't want to do anything YOU say." Great. LOVE the attitude. That one interaction colored my day. Never mind the 62 other students that I seemed to connect with - that one student took my power to feel good about the work I was doing. Why do I allow others' opinions to affect me and what I do? I am human. I've developed a rather thick shell over the years (you have to when you work with adolescents!), but there are chinks in the shell where my emotions ooze out. Zip - right into the chink. My rational brain says things like, "Now, you don...