music, therapy, and me

This time of year is when I tend to get all overstimulated by the thought of personal and professional quests. I tend to struggle with depression as the heat increases, and one of the ways that this manifests in me is super critical thinking and evaluation of myself and what I want to do versus what I actually do. So, I tend to set unattainable quests during this season of my life. Right now, I am a bit consumed with my goblins. Let me explain... I get overly critical of myself and tend to figure this out when my thoughts and comments include the following words: COULD WOULD SHOULD (Especially SHOULD) This is my SHOULDA goblin - at least, this is how I envision him lurking around in my brain. He sneaks out when I start thinking things like "I SHOULD be reading music therapy articles instead of fiction books." Often, I can stuff those thoughts back into my brain, but it is more difficult during the summer months. So, I am currently exploring why I feel this way - that I should...

I have not been reading - yet again - but I uncovered my books, so I have made progress towards my goal of reading these two books and learning more about competency-based supervision and music therapy clinical training. I also have my book of notes, so everything is poised and ready to take up the books again. I just have to do it. I also just have to vacuum the downstairs, clean the bathrooms, choose books to read in my leisure time, and all sorts of other things... I celebrated an anniversary yesterday. Last year, on the 19th of November, I moved into my house. This is my first home that is all mine. I am not completely (or even halfway) moved in, but I have also been either injured or sick for most of the year, so I am giving myself some grace with the fact that I haven't really unpacked. I make a little bit of progress every week, but I still have way too much and not enough places to put things. I am working on putting small things into containers which will use some of my sp...