Tuesday

Why are Tuesdays more difficult than Mondays in my world?

No, seriously. I am struggling this morning more than I did yesterday when I felt horrible. I now have a headache and chills to complicate matters. It is not virus or bacterial, it is all about the headache. Recently, I've been waking up with what I consider a migraine situation - difficulty with temperature regulation (it is interesting having hot flashes and chills simultaneously), headache that moves all around my brain, and light sensitivity. I have not had these types of headaches before - usually my migraine activity happens when I am awake, and I get a visual migraine first. Not with these things.

When I woke up this morning, it was when the light turned on. I was not feeling it. I allowed myself to stay in bed until about an hour after that event. Now I am up and not really looking forward to going to work today.

I found out yesterday that my second suite mate is leaving in two weeks when the first suite mate is retiring. I cannot be upset with her for leaving - she was pursued and got a better offer from an organization that will allow her to keep her pension and has opportunities for advancement as well, but I am upset for me. Originally, she was going to be the one left behind when the two of us retired, but now it is going to be me. All by myself in that space again.

I wonder if that news has something to do with my current state of being. Now, to be fair, this situation happens even when I haven't heard news, so I don't think it is. Who knows?

We are listening to musicians of the month this week and are singing silly songs in music therapy sessions this week. We are focusing on food because that is something at we all have in common - an interest in food. We are singing about food we like and food we do not like. Some of the songs are silly, but they work.

I am bringing my visual aids home this week. I am trying to get a box in the car each day to free up some shelf space and get some things out of my way. I have more shelves coming for my library and the closet there. I need storage options here at home as I go through what I have collected in many years. I have entire rooms that are not really used well, so I need to redefine my space here at home. I am thinking about turning a small bedroom in my home into my office space which will free up space down here for more storage. There are many moving parts to this situation, so I am not sure if I will do that or not. I may just put the storage into that small bedroom. That would work as well.

The one thing that I am hopeless with using is my closets. I do not use them well. Right now, all of my closets are just full of boxes of things that I do not use. I want to use them for my music therapy resources, but I do not have places for the other stuff. 

It is a bunch of dominoes that are waiting to start knocking each other over. Oh, fun.

So, Tuesday. I don't want to get up, I have a headache, I am going to have to say goodbye to the two people who have been at the facility as long as I have, and I am struggling with my living space organization.

Happy Tuesday. (I know this will all get better. I know it will, but I am wallowing in self-pity at the moment.)

Put on a happy face. 

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