music, therapy, and me

It is 5:07am, and I already feel like I am behind schedule. (I'm really not, but these feelings happen on a regular basis to me - it probably has a bit to do with my perfectionism and my discussion about impostor syndrome yesterday - you know, feeling like I don't really know what I'm doing and being scared that someone will discover this fact.) I have spent some time catching up with the weather, with friends and family members, and I have done part of my morning routine. I am working on the next part of my routine right now - writing my blog. I have some time for crafting on my routine, and breakfast is on the agenda. That's all that is left, but I still feel behind. Even though I am doing my routine and getting things done, my "want to-do" list is growing...and growing...and growing. I feel behind, but I want to be doing so much more. I find myself feeding my coulda/woulda/shoulda goblins more often these days, even though I know that feeding those go...

I am moving into a new era in my life. I've decided this will be so, so it is happening. As a music therapist who has been around for, face it, a very long time now, I have lots to offer and to think about, so I am starting a new chapter in my life. This is the year I stop thinking about things and actually do things! What has inspired this train of thought? Several things. I am not very happy where I am right now both professionally and personally. I talk lots about moving on when the job becomes too much to handle or boring, so it's time to follow my own advice. If that means moving from where I am to another location, job, and/or focus, then so be it! My grandmother left the world last week for the next world, and that is inspiring me to live a life I want to live instead of a life I have to live. The last thing that is happening right now is a general feeling that there has to be more to life than what is going on. I am getting glimpses of what is possible from a friend o...