music, therapy, and me

I finally got over my drilling anxiety and finished the toilet paper holder project that I had set as a quest for this break! As I was feeling really good about myself, I decided to go outside to my backyard, twisted the door lock, and then found myself staring at the lock which disintegrated into my hand. So, I watched a video on how to change sliding door locks, ordered a new lock set, and am ready to replace that done for lock as my adulting quest for today. I am finding that this home ownership thing is not for the weak. Halfway through my toilet paper anxiety, I told myself that the stress and anxiety was not worth it and that I needed to find a handy person of some sort to pay so I did not have to do this anymore. The next day, I finished the project on my own. I know that I can change a lock - I've done it more than once - but now I am wondering what will be the next home quest... I am liking the way that I am working through quests rather than working towards my goals. Just...

Yesterday was full of ambition and setting intentions and making plans, and my body started a migraine headache on the way home, letting me know that those plans were not going to be accomplished. Okay, then body - here's what we're going to do today. We're going to do the things we wanted to do yesterday today as we continue to work through the migraine and take the day away from the florescent lights and the cacophony of kids playing instruments. So there, body! Take that!! This is one of the problems that I have with myself and setting intentions - things happen and then I can't get to what I plan. Why do I plan?? Oh yeah - it's because that's what I think should happen in a responsible adult's life. Oh well. I often get hung up on what I think  is what happens when an adult is adulting. Does anyone else? Am I the only one or are there others out there that feel like an impostor when it comes to being an adult? I haven't done much readin...