Just a Quick Post - I'm Already "Late"

It is difficult to wake up right now, so this is going to be a short post because I was up at midnight, did not get back to sleep, and now am wanting to get the sleep that I missed. My eyes are bleary, and my brain is not wanting to go to my hot music therapy space to clean, do therapy sessions, and clean some more. I am going to be "late" to work today - I can feel it.

I have reached the "I don't care" stage of this termination process. This is not a good place to be, but it is happening now rather than a year ago, so that's good. Everything that is going on is temporary for me. Who cares about the clinical team meeting? Not me. Who cares about whether the thermometer gets fixed? Well, that is something that I care about at the moment, but I only have seven more days of work. I have ten days until I actually am finished. Having a deadline is making me feel frazzled as well as excited, but it is difficult to get up in the mornings. My Seasonal Affective Disorder is rearing its ugly head, so I am also experiencing my usual depression that happens during the summer months. It is too much sun for me. Anyway...

My office space at work is getting emptier. I am taking things home each day. I am emptying my car before I leave for work (that is a chore that I have to do before I leave and after I take my shower). I brought home my medium sized plastic drawers that included my extra clothing, my snacks, my random cords and stuff. I don't know where those will live in my home space, but that is what July and August are for this year. 

I plan on doing very little outside of my house in July. I am going to take naps when I need to. I am going to sort through all of my music therapy stuff. I will leave home to get food, go to the library, run errands, and go to my craft store for some socialization. Not to mention, I will be going to the movies as much as I can since I will no longer have to consider when I take my medications so I can wake up and function in the music therapy clinic. I can go to the movies at night, if I want (which I rarely do because I have to be awake the next morning). My quest for these first months of retirement is to sort, inventory, and organize my stuff.

Well, that turned out to be longer than I thought it would. That's good, but my time anxiety is screaming that I am going to be "late" to work, so it is time to get the rest of my morning routine started. See you tomorrow... 

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