Monday Morning Stream of Consciousness

I woke up this morning feeling like it really needs to be an inclement weather day but being disappointed seeing that NO ONE has called off school! I hope that this means that the roads are nice and smooth without any ice on their surfaces. I really hope that this is true because I have been in accidents on days where it should have been an inclement weather day and wasn't. I'm a bit anxious about driving this morning, so I may wait a bit before leaving - icy streets are a bit easier to take when I can see things more clearly. Being able to see any obstacles might make things a bit less anxiety-causing for me today, it might not.

We are going to be talking about Ireland this week in my music therapy sessions. I have my penny whistle to play for my clients. They often want to play instruments as well, but the penny whistle is not one that can be played. I do have recorders and flutaphones, but I hate using them with my clients. They are such a hassle of cleaning and germ mitigation and constant vigilance when it comes to putting the used ones into a different container than the clean ones so I don't have to clean EVERY recorder in between EVERY session. That can be a lot to have to do, so I am going to skip that part of Ireland this time around.

Before I leave today, I need to clear out my car. I have a bookshelf in there along with some bags of materials that are mine. I will take them out of the car and shove them in the kitchen before I leave  for work.

My house is still a mess, and I am not ready to do any of the things that I need to do in March.

I have to get my tax documents together as well as my financial documents for appointments during Spring Break. So much to do without the urge to do anything at all.

Five groups today.

A possibly icy commute. 

A messy house.

Clean underwear, so at least there's that!

Need to do clothing and sheets.

I'm tired and cold. I still have 32 minutes before I usually leave for work. I might give myself an extra 20 minutes to clear out the backseat of the car and to get closer to dawn. I want to be able to see any cars in ditches so I can avoid going there as well. What a mess. I could get some breakfast as well, but I don't usually eat in the early mornings.

Blech.

Two weeks until break - I can do this. I just don't want to right at this moment. I know that I will be fine when I get to the sessions, but the rest just drags on and on. People are talking to me about retiring more than I want to discuss the topic, so work is a bit challenging at the moment.

I worked on my latest book yesterday, and I finished three signatures - the decorations. I am already ready to start the next book - I still have one signature in the current book but the next one is calling. The next one will be a book-themed journal. I have an entire paper pad of book pictures and papers just waiting to be turned into something new. I bought this pad several months ago, so my #The100DayProject quest is going strong. I have not bought anything and am striving to use up things that I already have here at home. There you go.

Four more months before my next iteration as a music therapist/human. I looked at job opportunities available in my town but did not do much else yesterday. Things are getting more and more real.

Time to get going - my time anxiety is shaking me up...