Friday - This Has Been a Week...

I had a couple of rage moments yesterday at work.

They were not pretty, and one of my suitemates came over and shoved some chocolate under my nose to placate me. It helped a bit, but I was still very angry at the situations and people involved.

This has been a long week. It started with a day off where I got many things done. For some reason, Monday days off make the rest of the work week go poorly. In addition, we had to work 11 hours on Wednesday to make up time in our contracted hours. So, we ended up working a 36 hour week rather than a 40 hour week. The extended hours meant that I had to take my pain medication later than usual so I ended up being very tired yesterday morning which did not help my disposition. All sorts of things just culminated in a temper tantrum yesterday afternoon.

I am a bit ashamed about this, but I am also reaching the end of my patience. People are shouting out comments about my retirement in the hallway when I am not ready to share that with the general population of my facility. I don't want to have to talk about it with anyone at any time. I am a private person and absolutely HATE when people shout things at me in the hallway. I redirected that person who yelled at me that we weren't going to speak about it in the hallway, and he backed off, but the information is out there and floating around - not coming from me. My blood pressure spiked and then went over and beyond during the last meeting of the day. That's when I was approached with chocolate.

Today is a quiet day in the music therapy room. I have one music therapy session and one leisure group. That's all the people interaction that I have scheduled (I think). It will be good to go through things in my storage closet and start to move things around again. I will stream the Addams Family movies and sit on the floor and go through books and materials and all the stuff that I have accumulated in 29+ years. I feel like I need the alone time to regulate my sensory system and to get back into being agreeable. I don't think I am there right now.

Meanwhile, I have new books to read and people to communicate with and weather to watch.

Time to get going.

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