Revisiting My Word of the Year

It is the 27th day of January, 2026, and I am finding a need to be more rooted in myself and my thinking than I have accomplished recently. Hence, the return of my word of the year - metamorphosis. 

This is my selected word because I am facing significant changes in my daily life coming up pretty soon. In fact, I have about five months left before I no longer work at the facility where I have been for the past (almost) 30 years. This upcoming change both exhilarates and terrifies me, but I am more than ready to move into my next state of being.

I woke up just after midnight this morning needing to use the bathroom. I was able to go back to sleep for another three hours before my brain refused to sleep anymore. So, I have now been up for about an hour, going through my email accounts and other social media accounts. It is 4:35 am.

I am really resenting the fact that I have to wake up and get going these days. I keep reminding myself that I will not have to get up in five months to go to this job, but that doesn't make the process any easier today. I am hoping to get some chances to just stay in my bed for a bit after I am completely finished.

My word for this year is helping me focus myself on my quests. 

I have accomplished lots already. I established a formal business plan and structure for something I have always wanted to do - be a resource for music therapists on how to do things in music therapy practice. I have finished my first CMTE event with my new pre-approved provider status. I have plans for another CMTE event, and ideas are starting to buzz in my head about other event ideas. I still need to focus on the job that I have right now as well as on each of my clients, though. I cannot be lured into too many future thoughts. That is something that I have to focus on in the afternoons, not the mornings (currently).

For me, this word means that I am changing in ways that are mysterious to me but highly anticipated. I do not know what I will be doing at this time next year, but that is part of the fun. I might be working somewhere. I might not. I might move away from where I am right now. I might not. Who knows??

All I know is that it is cold outside, the roads still have a bit of snow on them, and I will need to leave my warm home to go do therapy for clients in about an hour. That's what I know. Everything else is out there, ready to be discovered.

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