Organizing My Home While Looking to the Future

Here I am, sitting in my bed, and thinking about blogging again - second day in a row!! There is hamburger on the stove, cooking up for various different entrees this week, and I am watching silly sitcoms. I am debating whether I really want to leave my house today. I really don't want to, but I know I need to. Yesterday, I went to Michaels and bought some containers, watercolor paper, and the good erasers. I hit my exhaustion wall after walking around Michaels. I am not sure that I want to go out in the heat and humidity today. The problem is that I need to be walking so I either do it here or outside where it is hot.

I bought some containers yesterday. They are portable file folder containers WITH an organizing section for things like pencils, pens, and super sticky post-it notes. As you know, I am a sucker for super sticky post-it notes, so having space for them in an organization tool is a wonderful thing for me.

I was thinking about organizing tools when I was walking around the store yesterday. I saw many different things that I could have spent money on, but the common refrain going through my head was "Will I use this in my new life in a year???"

My major problem right now is that I do not know what my new life will look like in a year.

I know this for sure - I will no longer be employed by my current facility. That is all that I know these days. I will be working some place else in a year.

I am not leaving my job because I hate it. I enjoy my job, but my body is not as easy to move around my clients anymore. Keep in mind that my clients are large, violent, and sometimes have to be physically managed for their safety and for the safety of others. Its the physical management that my body cannot accomplish without pain, so it is time to move on.

In my fantasy moments, I imagine owning a retreat center or camp where I could invite music therapists (and others) to provide continuing education, other learning opportunities, and community music education and music therapy services. I figure I could get this accomplished if I won a big lottery amount, but that is not something that I engage in often, so my chances of winning are slightly less than if I bought tickets. As someone who lives in reality, I know that I cannot make this dream happen on a pension, so I am going to figure out something that I can do with the talents that I have.

I would love to have a music therapy subscription business of some sort - sending out visual aids, session ideas, and TMEs to other music therapists. I've tried one iteration of this, but I did not have the time or energy or money to devote to making this happen. I would like to start it up again.

Also, I don't plan on not being a music therapist once I leave my current job. I would like to continue running sessions and being a therapist. I don't know if I would like to do this on my own or if I want to be an employee again. I am learning a bit more about being a sole proprietor, and I'm not sure that I want to take that role in life. I have always been a better employee than an entrepreneur.

It is still a bit early to be thinking too much about all of this, but I am just at home without supervision. My brain is just moving and twisting around everything that is happening and will happen. I am tired and bored.

So, the organization things that I bought yesterday are things that I could use in whatever future I end up inhabiting. I have two file boxes that will be able to store all sorts of things, and I might go get some more...

...tomorrow.

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