Day Two: Tired and Retired

I am exhausted. If you don't know (because you're new to this blog), I finished my job of 30 years two days ago, and I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything that has happened in the past 72 hours. I was hugged by more people than usual, including the maintenance guy, on Thursday when I was saying goodbye to my clients and coworkers. For someone who does not hug much, it was lots for my body to endure, but hugs were important for others, so I did it!

Yesterday, I was wide awake at 2am, and I could not get back to sleep. I have been having trouble both getting to sleep at night and sleeping for my usual 7 hours. Wide awake at 2am meant that I started to panic about everything that I have left behind and not knowing what is coming in the future. Ugh. I ended up going through a webinar and signing up for a continuing education business course by 5:30am. I also put together almost all of my information for the adolescent conference in August so I can submit the CBMT proposal and start the marketing process.

After that, I tried to go back to sleep but didn't. I ended up taking my former work journal and turned it into a current work journal. I am going to try more traditional bullet journal formats in that book. It will stay on my desk rather than moving around the house with me.

The things on my work journal list for today is to meet with a music therapy peer for a peer supervision session, get her biography for the conference so I can submit stuff, take a shower (yep, I have to schedule those types of things), make the bed, cook food - more home stuff rather than work stuff... I don't think I will include those things in this journal. Those have nothing to do with work. I'm still figuring out my new process.

Tomorrow, I am going to a creative arts therapy collective to take a SoulCollage (I am supposed to use a trademark symbol, but I cannot find it here so, TM) workshop. It seems to combine some of my favorite things - playing with paper and psychology. I was stressing about whether I would be able to see a movie before I have to go to the workshop, and then I realized that I can go to a movie any time next week, so I will strive for a Monday movie this week. 

This mindset is going to take some getting used to.

My house is still overwhelming me with the level of stuff that is around me. I did not move anything yesterday, but that's okay. I have nothing but time ahead of me to get things done. Again, that is going to take some time before it is something that I know down deep in my bones.

So, today's list includes a sing about song project, meeting with my friend, and that's it. Everything else will go into the other planner - the one that is more personal and includes a calendar type spread rather than lists of tasks. We will see if this system works for me, but I hope it will. It seems to be what my brain is craving at the moment - structure!

I will be adding more structure into blog posts in the near future - themes for specific days and sharing ideas. I will also be trying to establish a morning routine that will include leaving my house and exercising as well as working on different projects during the day. That will happen at some point, I am sure, but not today. I am just going to take my shower, meet with my friend, and make my bed. That's what I'm going to do...

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