Music Is Missing
It is true, music does not feature in my self-care routine. I do not listen to much music outside of my music therapy clinic, and I no longer make music in a community of musicians. So, music is not a big part of my life outside of what I share with my clients. I'm not sure how I feel about this.
This is not something new (even the lack of musicking in a community of musicians has lasted over a year and a half now), but it is interesting to me.
After a day of handling the emotions of others and navigating the world of music therapy with my population, I need something different to fill up my background. My noise creator of choice is television shows and movies. I have a bunch of things downloaded to my Kindle, so I have company through stories during my commutes. I do not stream music outside of my therapy space, so music is not something that I really use when on the move. Here at home, I have CDs and streaming music to keep me company, so I can listen to music, but I don't. I find it a bit too stimulating.
There is something different about the music that is included in tv shows and movies that allows me to concentrate and relax. When music is present, my body focuses on the music and responds through all sorts of changes and stimulations and entrainments and physiological reactions that just keep me focused on the music and not on other things.
After spending my time making music in the service of others, I do not want music to overwhelm me in my rest time.
So, music is missing from my self-care routine. I wonder if I will make more music after I no longer go to my current job every day. It will be interesting to see.
I think that this is not something that is to be considered negative in my life. It just is. There are times when I crave music and times when I abhor it. That is okay, and I want others to know that it is fine when you do not want music around. When music becomes your work, then music becomes something else in your life.
There you go.
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