Woeful Wednesday: The Weight of the World and All

I have been unable to write the past two days. I'm not exactly sure why, but I know that I have been a bit preoccupied by the sheer stupidity of things happening out in the world. There are times when outside concerns take over my attention and push me down.

I have also had some back problems lately that have also made me inwardly focused. The outward pull and the inward push have taken over my attention and have made it difficult to do much of anything, but I have made it to work and done my job. I am currently debating whether I want to take a later morning, and I think I will. I think I will try my best to go to work and get there on time rather than early. I have already worked more than my contracted hours this week, so I can do a regular day.

When I am in these types of moods there are several things that I have to do. The first is to block political messages from my social media feeds. Lots of friends will be going on 30 day breaks. The constant calls for action make me feel like I cannot do anything. I am being pulled and pushed in all directions simultaneously. I don't know where to go.

I hate that politics have become so much of the focus of our country these days. I hate feeling like I constantly have to keep up because each press release is crazier than the next. I hate being bombarded by opinions and erroneous information and things that are designed to distract us from the inappropriate things happening in the background.

That's all I can write today. Sorry. I hope I can get up from this pressure and start to do what I love to do - write about music, therapy, and me.

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