Thurs... Wait, It Is Thursday, Right??

This has not been a happy time for me, and I am sure that many of us are feeling scattered. I haven't been able to write much at all because I tend to go into spates of angry tears and hysteria. Today, though, I feel that I need to try to write a bit.

I unfriended a person that I have known for a very long time over the election results. The rhetoric that came from this person became too much for me to see on my feed, and Facebook would not allow me to snooze that person at all. My only choice was to block this person. I am sad about this, but I am not able to continue to share aspects of my life with someone who does not recognize that people have the right to be who they want rather than who the government wants them to be. I have struggled with this rhetoric throughout this political season, and I cannot allow it to continue.

So, this person is now blocked from interacting with me on social media.

I am trying to process my feelings. At the moment, I am overcome with fear. I am scared that my transgender clients and co-workers will be killed because of who they are. I am scared that my clients will be denied opportunities for individualized education because special education services will be discontinued. I am scared that the adults that I have served over the years will not have any sort of support from the government and will be turned out of their homes. I am scared that I will no longer be able to oversee my own finances and that my estranged brother will be set over my right to home ownership and using the money that I earn. I am scared.

Now, I know that this level of fear is an overly emotional response to the events of this week in this country, but I am feeling all of this. My emotional mind is flooding my rational mind. I know that many of my fears will not come true, but the threat is out there - plans for dismantling many of the things that I feel are essential services for humans in this country are published and readily available.

What will I be doing for the next couple of days? I am going to concentrate on serving my clients to the best of my ability. I am going to make plans to protect my property, my money, and my work as I need to help me process things that are happening right here, right now.

I am also going to limit my news exposure and bury myself in reading, crafting, and things I can control in the house that I own. That is my plan.

Take care of yourselves, please.

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