Finishing the Week In Repose

It is Saturday - my day of rest.

I went back to sleep this morning after waking at 3:47 (my parent's street number - always feels lucky to me) and slept until 5:30 am. I rarely go back to sleep when I wake up, so I felt that it was a good sign that I was able to get a bit more shuteye. I have now finished a task for the Online Conference for Music Therapy, Inc. and am finishing up some of my chores for that organization. There are only 97 days left before the next online conference. Will you be there?

Apparently, my brain is moving faster than my fingers are this morning. I am backspace typing quite a bit, so it is time to slow down. Take a couple of deep breaths and focus on one thing at a time. It probably doesn't help that I am eating M&Ms at the computer right here rather than finding some protein. Ah, the ramifications of the choices I make right here, right now!

Isn't that the way? Everything I do has ramifications for me and for others. Now, writing while under the influence of chocolate and a crispy candy shell doesn't really have lots of ramifications for you, but it does affect me in this moment. I have to take full responsibility because no one else is here to pour the candy into my mouth. There is no one to blame but me.

Gather round, children, as I break out the codger that lurks behind my words...

In my opinion (and mine alone), our society has become more and more selfish and less and less willing to accept the ramifications of our own choices and behaviors. We don't want to accept that we can make mistakes that affect what happens to us and to the others around us. This seems to be at the root of all the "Karen" videos that are out in the world. Another opinion. We need to stop watching these types of videos. I need to stop watching all videos for the moment. I need to focus on kitten videos and avoid much of anything with humans in it.

I try take responsibility and credit when I need to. There are times when I can see the results of my actions, and it is important that I acknowledge that I am the one who caused those things. There are other times when I am caught up in the actions of others - sometimes willingly, sometimes not. I try to accept what is my burden, but I also try to shed the things that are not mine to own and take on. It is difficult to not take responsibility for things that are not mine. This is something that I continue to work on.

Anyway, back to the title of this particular post - sorry about the rant, but it has been percolating in my brain for some time now.

I need to do some chores at home today. I need to cook some food. I have been living on canned foods lately. I need to make a grocery order. There are always dishes to be done, floors to pick up, and projects to start. Always. I have all the stuff from my church job to sort through and assimilate into my home. I have to grab my record player, my cassettes, and things for technology week next week. The chores don't go away just because I want to rest.

There will be some time for fun as well. I am currently enjoying the new Matlock and the show, Elsbeth. I will watch the latest episodes a couple of times today. I will figure out something good to eat. I may even make an ice cream sundae. I am also going to make a sign for my front door that states that I have already voted so skip my home with any sort of political stuff. I just figure that this is a day for relaxation and it will be a slow day. I might even read a book or two today and tomorrow. Time for some rest.

Ooh. Matlock just got good. I'm gonna need to watch this one again. I like it when television shows keep me interested...

Time to go. See you tomorrow for some songwriting.

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