Wednesday: I Have to Write Something

I tried to write yesterday, but I was unable to do it. I was late to rise and did not have much ability to think. I am better this morning, but I am stressed about all sorts of things. I cannot really put a finger on anything, but the stress is there... lurking behind the scenes. I've finished the tasks that I needed to get done for OCMT, and now I am thinking more about my own business status.

That's right. I now have a business of my own - duly registered with the state and with the IRS. I anticipate that I will earn about $15 in this quarter, so I am guessing I will not have to pay too much in taxes, but you never know. I am already on the junk mail lists. Ugh. It amazes me how quickly information is released to others.

Anyway, bank accounts are next on my list of things to do. I have to close one at one bank and open another at another bank. I have a spreadsheet to help me figure out what I should be doing when it comes to taxes. I also have a symposium to organize as well as a CBMT application to renew. Things are starting to pile up, and things at work are becoming increasingly loud and emotional.

This work situation is not unusual - it tends to happen during these darker months full of holidays. Our behavioral health technicians - the people who do not get holidays off and have to work with clients all the time - are also stressed. We have so many people coming in and leaving again that it is dizzying. I often do not learn their names before they disappear forever. There are classroom personality clashes, constant changes, and less communication than what is needed. Is that true of all places, or just my current facility? I hope it is something that happens in all sorts of places.

I have seven days to get through before I have a five day weekend. I am getting ready for some chores and some relaxation before heading back into the whirlwind of the three weeks of work between breaks. I am hoping that airline travel will be smooth during the break so I can get back home for the holiday. We will see what happens in the future. At the moment, though, I have to get through the next seven days.

Things were pretty chill yesterday. One kid ran in specifically to hit me - his heart wasn't in it. My students seemed to accept music listening and novel instrument play without complaint, and I finished the day with some pizza from a new pizza place. I am now figuring out when I will be completing the next steps for my mini business while getting things organized here at home.

It is time to get myself started on my journey for the day. I am watching a variety of Korean television shows during my documentation and commutes, and I am enjoying them greatly. I have detected several common themes and will, no doubt, write about them at some point.

Anyway - time to get going.

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