Wednesday: Late to Work Because of a Mistake

I have to take a late day today because I did not take my evening medications until late last night. I'm glad I remembered them when I did because they have some withdrawal symptoms that I do not want to have to go through during my Wednesday sessions.  Anyway, that means that I have some leftover symptoms that interfere with my driving, so I have to take a late day.

This means that I will not arrive until around 7:45. My large chunk of time for yesterday's documentation is gone when I arrive at this time, but I have been early (before 7am) the other two days of this week, so I feel like I have given my extra time this week already. I have a meeting after school, so staying for my 8 hours will not be a chore.

I got a stack of laminating back from our work-ready program, so I am set to make more educational visuals for clients in their classrooms. That is my happy place at work these days - making visuals in my office area while listening to shows on my Kindle. I have a little bit of time where I can work on this project today. I will be here at home on Friday for the Music for Kiddos symposium, so I will not have the time that I usually have this week to work on these types of projects. I get to do my professional development instead!

This is a season of little jobs that need to be finished before other things can get done. I have a purchase order to get to accounting - I just need to know who needs to receive it and then get them the links. I have a guitar string that needs to be reversed - I tightened it the wrong way. I have a bunch of small things that I need to do here at home. I will try to get those things written down and then finished in between presentations on Friday.

My time anxiety is starting to rear its ugly head. It is the time I usually leave for my job, but I am going an hour later than usual so I can trust my driving ability a bit more. Also, an hour later means full sunshine rather than dusk to dawn driving into the sun.

Okay. To review. I am going in late which is causing me to have a bit of anxiety. I am feeling like I have so much to do but really things are manageable. Currently, I am tired, but that is due to late ingestion of medication. I will get perkier as the medication wears off a bit. My to-do list will be expanding significantly in the next two days - but only the home version. I need to do things like find the downstairs vacuum robot. It has disappeared somewhere. It is probably under the bed, but I haven't had the ability to bend over to see. I can do that on Friday if I don't do it tonight.

I have been struggling with time lately. I have been feeling like the day is the next one - so today feels like a Thursday rather than a Friday - and I figured out why! The grocery store that is on the corner at the last big intersection before I am in the parking lot at work has a calendar slide on the presentation. It is a day ahead of things. It seems that my subconscious has absorbed the incorrect calendar slide when I orient myself to the day that I have ahead of me. It is amazing that a quick exposure to something that I see every day can affect my time orientation.

Today is Wednesday. It is Wednesday today. It is not Thursday, it is Wednesday.

My brain is starting to wake up. It is an interesting phenomenon to go from feeling snowed under to feeling neurons start to fire again. It is hard to describe, but I can tell when I am starting to come out from under the chemicals. This awakening comes with a bit of motor involvement as well - I feel twitchy.

Oh dear, I am looking around my current environment and am finding so much to put on my to-do list. I better get that started while I am twitching and waking up.

I hope you have a great WEDNESDAY (it is Wednesday, after all!). See you soon!

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