Post 3772 - Another Tuesday

It is another summer school Tuesday, and I did not sleep well - again. I am not doing well when it comes to sleeping these days. I am not really all that worried about my upcoming surgery - I don't think - but perhaps something is happening on a subconscious level that is interfering. Who knows at this point. All I know right now is that I have five groups ahead of me today. 

"That client" was perfect yesterday. No issues at all in music therapy. Apparently, listening to Disney music is acceptable.

I am sure it will not be acceptable to today's version of "that client." Two of the three are completely uninterested in anything I have to offer. They refuse to even sit in chairs. The entire session is a wrestling match. It is ridiculous, and I am just not looking forward to anything to do with music therapy right now.

I tried to sleep last night, but it didn't happen. I could not get comfortable in my bed or my body. There are supposed to be storms in the area, but I didn't see any of that during my interrupted sleep sessions. This, more than anything, seems to be a predictor of my performance as a music therapist.

I am already tired and prone to additional aches, pains, and depression during these hot, humid days. Add in clients with significant behavior concerns, and my level of energy is not enough for what I am required to present in music therapy sessions.

I often feel like I am working in a deficit-mode during the summer sessions. Even the generous time off that we get during the summer is not enough to recharge my energy. So, for the second day in a row, I am dragging myself out the door to complete my basic job functions. Everything that I have goes into music therapy interactions. I feel like I am left with very little energy and interest at the end of each day. All I want to do is to sleep in front of an AC vent feeling the cool air on my body.

From this moment, I have sixteen sessions to go before the end of week.

On Friday, I am going to the library to pick up my summer reading program reward packet and to get more books. I am currently trying to read Sense and Sensibility - I do not enjoy Regency or Georgian authors, but I also try to read something that I should have read in high school every year, so I purchased an omnibus of Austen's novels. S and S is the first one in the book, so I am going to slog through it. Each Austen novel will be followed by another book, but it is my goal to get through the omnibus by the start of the next school year in August.

So, my agenda for the next seven work days is jammed full with sessions, surgery preparation, reading novels that do not really interest me but need to be read because it needs to be done eventually.

It is time to take a shower, get myself commuting to work, preparing for five groups, and then getting home again. Doesn't sound like much, but it is on a body that is aching and exhausted. I think I might get fast food for breakfast before I get gas for my car. 

Time to get moving into the day.

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