Trying Again...

It is raining today - not a quiet, steady, and soaking type of rain but a heavy, washing away type of rain. It has been a long time since we had some rain, so I am welcoming the cooler weather and the water that is coming down. Crops are in, so this will help wash the dust from the air and make things a bit more clear. 

I went to work yesterday and walked on the convenient sidewalk that was between my preferred parking lot and the main building. When I went outside for bus duty at the end of the day, the sidewalk had been replaced with a gaping hole and a bulldozer. Apparently, administration decided that the sidewalk had to go, so I have to remember to park elsewhere today - especially since the gaping hole will probably be a mud pit by the time I get there today. The gaping hole is supposed to alleviate the flooding problem that the property has had since I've been there (25 years), but I am skeptical since it hasn't been fixed in those 25 years even with all the tinkering that has happened over those years.

Tomorrow is my day to go back to the hand specialist to see what comes next. The last time I went, the doctor made an allusion toward moving from recovery and healing into rehabilitation! I am hoping that I heard him correctly and will actually start the process of getting a bit more strength into my atrophied fingers. I miss playing instruments. I miss picking up a pen and writing something. I also miss making books and crocheting and holding things in my hands. Let's hope that I will be able to start working on strengthening and bending and using my dominant hand again very soon! I will do what is asked, even when it hurts, because I need to keep trying things until I am better. I hope I will get good news about this being a situation that can be resolved. I'm still a bit doubtful, but I am still hopeful that this has not been a career-ending injury. I will keep working until I can work no more.

I am going to be heading into my pharmacy this morning to pick up yet another medication for my current issues. This will be the third medication and the fourth dosage of medication that I have had in the past three weeks. I am tired of being sick, but I am game to try again. I just have to take additional time off from work to get the new medication. I don't want to wait until after work to get started since I've spent most of the last three weeks in pain and extreme discomfort because of all of this! The pharmacists recognize me by name and face now. It's a bit disconcerting when they make statements like, "Oh no, that medication didn't work? Let's hope this one does! Keep trying."

You know, this seems to be my mantra at the moment. Keep trying. Try again and again, if needed.

I have been talking about this with interns lately - trying things and exploring options and making choices without second-guessing one's self after the fact. We have to remember that we cannot foresee every response that a client will have to a particular stimulus, so we offer it into the environment and we see what the client will do with it. If the response is not something desired, then we try something different. We keep trying until we find what is needed in that time and in that moment.

I am going to send off my notice to my interns and my supervisor that I will be late this morning so I can get my next medication. Keep trying.

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